a weird combination of isolation and connection and disconnection; discomfort and awkwardness.

I basically started performing for my mother, going, 'Love me!' What drives you to perform is the need for that primal connection. When I was little, my mother was funny with me, and I started to be charming and funny for her, and I learned that by being entertaining, you make a connection with another person.

We have not -- and I repeat -- we have not made an arrest in connection with BTK,

I wish they would all go away.

Except the Fool. I wished he would join me. Somehow, I had always thought he would join me. Now, I could not recall why. Perhaps I had buried that in the stone.

It's not the sort of thing one asks of a friend. He hasn't offered, and I will not ask it. I will not tear him that way. I am trying to let go. I don't know how.

Did you feel that?' I asked him.

He smiled sadly. 'Fitz, I have never needed to touch you to feel that. It was always there. No limits.