Because for whatever reason, even though I want to stay home all the time and be left alone, I want to tell the world who I am now.

I always want to stay focused on who I am, even as I'm discovering who I am.

Now I feel like whatever I do, no one can hurt me. I cannot be violated, I cannot be humiliated, I cannot be disregarded, I cannot be disrespected.

I am always so envious of people who do whatever they want.

I eat with my hands when I am home alone!

I think I'm better at live shows than I used to be because I'm way more comfortable with the uncomfortable pauses between songs. Now, rather than trying to talk or do a costume change, I'll use those moments for myself. I listen to what other people are playing, or just rest, or dance, even though I don't know how to.