Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.

Sometimes we question things that we have done in our lives but how many times do we question what we haven't done in someone else's.

I'm disappointed that I really haven't been able to race in a way that is reflective of the amount of work that I have done and how I have trained. But I don't regret giving this a go.

I'm more comfortable knowing that, chances are, I'm going to fail at this. I've become comfortable with that.

I think now I'll probably take a few days off and enjoy the competition and then sit down with a few people and work out what is next, work out what the next preparation will be and what competition will be next.

I'll go for broke. Swim faster. It's not going to be easy - this whole thing was never going to be easy.