Feeling and careing are often overlooked and are seen simply as kindness

I'm lonely. And I'm lonely in some horribly deep way and for a flash of an instant, I can see just how lonely, and how deep this feeling runs. And it scares the shit out of me to be this lonely because it seems catastrophic.

For me, this is old. I probably know what is happening better than he does because I've tried over and over to wreck myself on another human, and always failed. I fail now. For it seems that my sorrow is deep in my bones and I'd have to break every single one to let it out.

Wonderland was all we had in common, after all; Wonderland was what was denied the two of us. I had denied him his; he had denied me mine.

1I smiled bitterly, a defeated man pitifully begging a God in whom he had never trusted.

Once you start down the slippery slope of depression, it's hard to climb off of it. And sometimes you don't want to climb off of it.