He was baptized in the river at Spooky Hollow in Loveland.

At times he was very lucid and very aware. Other times it was like he would just clam up.

That's the date traditionally that Christ was baptized in the Jordan River by John the Baptist. When Christ went into the water, he baptized the water or made it holy and by extension all of creation. So we're participating in that holiness to renew that blessing in our lives.

And he said unto them, Unto what then were ye baptized? And they said, Unto John's baptism.

I feel hollow inside, as if there’s a black hole where my heart was, as if I am caving in around myself.

For a long time he had been white smoke. He did not realize that until he left the hospital, because white smoke had no consciousness of itself. It faded into the white world of their bed sheets and walls; it was sucked away by the words of doctors who tried to talk to the invisible scattered smoke... They saw his outline but they did not realize it was hollow inside.