He was totally alien to the man I knew and loved. It was like he had a big black cloud hanging over his head. But even then I didn't suspect he was having an affair.

I've always been artistic and never knew really what to do with it.

He was a big man, about 6-5. He had this leadership aura about him. You knew he was in charge. He was prepared and understood the game. He knew what it took to win. He was hard on players, but they understood what he stood for.

I thought it was really sweet of her. I couldn't drive so I just thought she was lending me a helping d. It never occurred to me that I was playing straight into their hands. Call me gullible, but I believed every word she said.

I was lying next to my poorly son in hospital when he phoned and told me what had been going on. I don't know how I got through the next few hours. As I cradled my baby, all I could think about was Jock and Nikki together. My world fell apart that day. I can't believe they managed to keep it hidden all that time. It really was the ultimate betrayal.

I loved Alessandra Torre's 'Black Lies.'