He's got major decisions to make. I would never try to ask him or persuade him to do anything that he doesn't want to do.

Obviously, the starting pitcher, you've got to set the tone. The first inning, give up three runs, that's just terrible. It's extremely disappointing. I'm embarrassed. I don't know what to say. I've got to go around to every guy and apologize.

I said, 'Oh gosh, I've got to somehow, some way, get ready to pitch Game 5 in Atlanta,'

Give them a lot of credit: When I made a bad pitch, they took advantage of it.

Nolan told me that it was not going to feel good this year, ... That's the problem. You don't know how your arm is going to feel one day to the next. Every time I go out there, it's a battle. Some days it feels better than others. And I've put a lot on it this year.

I know I feed off Roger, and I'm sure other guys do, too. It's a different role for me. I was just a kid the first time I got to the Series in New York. This is a much different experience for me.