I had this notion that everyone was staring at me and judging everything about me, from my appearance to the way I talk and everything.

I talk to Ronnie two or three times a week,

One of my biggest problems is that I'm always so influenced by what other people are thinking about me.

I'm closer to being happy. I'm doing things that make me happy. In football I loved to practice and I loved to play, but I hated to be in meetings, hated to talk to the media, hated to have cameras in my face, hated to sign autographs. I hated to do all those things.

To talk about balance, it's easier to talk about what's out of balance. And I think anytime that you have any disease, and disease meaning lack of ease, lack of flow... dis-ease. So any time there's disease, you're out of balance, whether it's jealousy, anger, greed, anxiety, fear.

Sometimes success will get in the way of maturity - at least temporarily.