I have never been one for the over-the-top.

They didn't throw me on one of the top lines, but they didn't keep me out as a healthy scratch, either. I think Dave King and Doug were using me well, and I think it was good development for me. I couldn't think of a better team to come to for a young guy than Columbus. You aren't just going to jump in and be a star player at 18. It's tough to be a star in the NHL. I just fit in and played my role on the third line, and just kind of hit and chipped in with a goal here or there when I could.

With some of my previous relationships, they never really felt right even from the beginning but I persevered with them.

Some people say that practice makes perfect but I just feel that the repetition works against me and I start thinking too far ahead during a show.

Chasing the sensation. Whether it was drugs or sex or whatever. Those things had become my main focus in life.

You know, even though you have a limb severed, the signals keep running down the nerves so I still get an itch on my elbow or whatever.