I looked up fairness in the dictionary and it was not there.

These words that occur to me come out of my relation to the language which is developing even as I am using it.

For a time I hovered in that peaceful dreamland where nothing at all works properly but everything is okay.

When words are put together in fresh ways there is a pleasure-giving quality in language, which brings a release of endorphins.

Toska - noun /ˈtō-skə/ - Russian word roughly translated as sadness, melancholia, lugubriousness.

"No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.

A definition is the enclosing a wilderness of idea within a wall of words.