I need you to be happy. I need one of us to be happy.

I know how to be the witness to her grief. I don't know how to be this kind of villain.

The moment she was cursed, I lost her. Once it wears off- soon- she will be embarrassed to remember things that she said, things she did, things like this. No matter how solid she feels in my arms, she is made of smoke.

It’s just that you go so crazy being alone like that. Sometimes he’d forget my water or food and I’d cry and cry and cry.” She stops talking and looks out the window. “I would try to tell myself stories to pass the time. Fairy tales. Parts of books. But they got used up.

I survive at the edge of friends circles.

So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and I'm still trying to figure out how that could be.