I seem to myself, as in a dream,
An accidental guest in this dreadful body.

The evening sky is gold and vast.
I’m soothed by April’s cool caress.
You’re late. Too many years have passed, -
I’m glad to see you, nonetheless.

Come closer, sit here by my side,
Be gentle with me, treat me kind:
This old blue notebook – look inside –
I wrote these poems as a child.

Forgive me that I felt forsaken,
That grief and angst was all I knew.
Forgive me that I kept mistaking
Too many other men for you.

I myself, from the very beginning,
Seemed to myself like someone's dream or delirium
Or a reflection in someone else's mirror,
Without flesh, without meaning, without a name.
Already I knew the list of crimes
That I was destined to commit.

You will hear thunder and remember me,
and think: she wanted storms...

Now that you're there, where everything is known—tell me:
What else lived in that house besides us?

If you were music, I would listen to you ceaselessly, and my low spirits would brighten up.