I think it's hard for you to fall in love because you like control, and you can't control what another person does or feels, so you keep all your cards.

...love was desire and desire was an emptiness.

Love is illogical. You fall into it like a manhole. Then you're just stuck. You die in love more than you live in love.

You shouldn't have to convince anyone to choose you. There is no real choice in love.

A word of advice,” he says, as I stop in his office to say goodbye. “When you’re in love with a woman, you shouldn’t get involved with other women.”
“Noted,” I say. “Though, I would like to offer that she is probably sleeping with another man as we speak.

What’s the difference?” I asked him. “Between the love of your life, and your soulmate?”
“One is a choice, and one is not.