I took a deep breath and listened to the old bray of my heart. I am. I am. I am.

I am a victim of introspection.

There is an increasing market for mental hospital stuff. I am a fool if I don't relive it, recreate it.

I want to live and feel all the shades, tones, and variations of mental and physical experience possible in my life. And I am horribly limited.

I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am.

Today is the first of August. It is hot, steamy and wet. It is raining. I am tempted to write a poem. But I remember what it said on one rejection slip: 'After a heavy rainfall, poems titled 'Rain' pour in from across the nation.'