i want to die but live at the same time.

Drowning,
Drowning on the land,
Drowning,
It doesn't end.

The man who kills a man kills a man.
The man who kills himself kills all men.
As far as he is concerned, he wipes out the world.

Strangman shrugged theatrically. "It might," he repeated with great emphasis. "Let's admit that. It makes it more interesting—particularly for Kerans. 'Did I or did I not try to kill myself?' One of the few existential absolutes, far more significant than 'To be or not to be?', which merely underlines the uncertainty of the suicide, rather than the eternal ambivalence of his victim." He smiled down patronisingly at Kerans as the latter sat quietly in his chair, sipping at the drink Beatrice had brought him. "Kerans, I envy you the task of finding out—if you can.

Think of all those ages through which men have had the courage to die, and then remember that we have actually fallen to talking about having the courage to live.

I don't believe taking your own life is wrong nor it's a lowest thing you can do for your own gain. If taking other people lives isn't worse than this, then who the hell who am I suppose to complain this to? Death? I certainly don't think he care about stealing.