I was miserable in WCW. I knew I wasn't going to go any higher there, and jumping to WWE hadn't even crossed my mind. I couldn't stop wondering, 'Is this it? Is this what I worked my whole life for?'

I honestly can't describe what goes on in my head when I'm out there. People who don't wrestle can't possibly understand it. When I'm in the ring, I don't feel any pain. I'm in another world out there.

Since the day I was born, wrestling has sustained me and my family. It's the way my father fed me; it's the way I feed my kids. More importantly, wrestling is my greatest release. It's been such a blessing for me. I can step into the ring and let it all go - all my anger, all my frustration, all my pain.

That brinkmanship for the most part has worked for him. He's crossed red line after red line,

After a few games I knew I was going to be able to compete. The idea of being a star never crossed my mind.

It's torturous sitting here not knowing, wondering what they're talking about. I wish we could be in the deliberation room. But we'll just have to sit here and wait.