I won't say I didn't like it at the time, the sex, that is, because I wouldn't have let him do it at all if that had been the case.

He had a way with him. Before you had a chance to say no, he was there and done. That only happened to me once before, with a duke, who literally swept me off my feet, and before I knew what was happening, we'd done it. Another terrible mistake.

I enjoyed sex and indulged in it when I fancied the men.

They wanted to hear about the sex, of course. But not the rest; no one wanted to hear the rest.

I'm terrified of men these days. If someone asked me out now, I don't know what I'd say, how I'd react. But I couldn't go through with it, not at all. I suppose I've been terrified of them all along.

It's been a misery for me, living with Christine Keeler.