It was the lowest point of my life and I needed help,

Once the person knows 'I'm too angry,' then (as a professional) you're trying to help them come up with strategies that will distance them from the angry event.

I've been ignored for 20 years but now it's heartening to get some recognition,

We were having a trial game against Leeds, and Jack Charlton was the boss of Middlesbrough at the time.

Now Jack Charlton wasn't wrong, I was a bad footballer.

So for a year I spent all my time hiding from Jack Charlton in the car park practising my skills.