Just when it seems like life is getting good, something always has to come along and ruin it.

Everyone always says how I'm so smart, but they don't know what it's like being me. always feeling like you could do better.

The rain fluctuates between drizzle and torrential. It messes with your mind. It makes you think things will always be like this, never getting better, always letting you down right when you though the worst was over.

And I just think that if you believe in something and you want it so much and you're not hurting anyone else, you have to go for it. Which sometimes means taking a risk, even if it's scary. But the thing you want most to happen doesn't stand a chance unless you give it one.

Because if you take a risk, you just might find what you're looking for.

You have to be a responsible adult and support yourself because no one else is going to do it for you.