My sister died and my mum was really distant, as you do - you don't expect your offspring to die before you. I thought I was bulletproof up until that stage.

He should die the way my sister died.

You can't tell a 6-year-old your sister is going to die.

When I was in my twenties, I thought I was bulletproof.

Mum died at 85 in January,

My childhood was kind of complicated. I have an older sister, but my father, my mother's husband, died when I was four years old. So I only had my mum and sister, really.