Not stupid. Overly trusting, maybe, but that reflects on his lack of trustworthiness, not on your intelligence.

I was so afraid of wanting too much that I couldn't trust her handing me a shot at getting it. I don't want to be that senselessly fearful ever again.

It isn't fair how I doubt him, and I wonder if he'll ever gather that my loss of faith extends further than I'd ever known it would, severing lines of trust and leveling my confidence like a city-flattening tornado.

That's how they say it: He loves you in his own way. Well, what about my way? What if I need for him to love me in my way?

Love is not the absence of logic
but logic examined and recalculated
heated and curved to fit
inside the contours of the heart

Something about first love defies duplication. Before it, your heart is blank. Unwritten. After, the walls are left inscribed and graffitied. When it ends, no amount of scrubbing will purge the scrawled oaths and sketched images, but sooner or later, you find that there’s space for someone else, between the words and in the margins.