Nothing ever happens like you imagine it will

She loved mysteries so much, that she became one

YOU WILL GO TO THE PAPER TOWNS
AND YOU WILL NEVER COME BACK

My heart is really pounding," I said.
"That's how you know you're having fun," Margo said.

To find Margo Roth Spiegelman, you must become Margo Roth Spiegelman.
And I had done many of the things she might have done: I had engineered a most unlikely prom coupling. I had quieted the hounds of caste warfare. I had come to feel comfortable inside the rat-infested haunted house where she did her best thinking. I had seen. I had listened. But I could not yet become the wounded person.

And now life has become the future. Every moment of your life is lived for the future-you go to high school so you can go to college so you can get a good job so you can get a nice house so you can afford to send your kids to college so they can get a good job so they can get a nice house so they can afford to send their kids to college.