punishment had not been spared--with best results in patience and purification

The principle part of faith is patience

The Wolfe must dye in his owne skinne. [The wolf must die in his own skin.]

I had to de-program myself. From myself. Had to reinvent rituals of purification. So full of the vagrant pollutions of others. It was time to detox. Not only from alcohol, sex, and drugs, but from needy leeches who looked to swab me with their sores. Detox from my own needy lechery. Had to locate the center wound and cauterize. Undo the original sin, the origin of my sickness...Had to learn to replace Them, It, Want, Hurt, Anger, Sorrow, Loss, with Power, Healing, Wisdom, Fulfillment, Satisfaction.

Punishment is lame, but it comes

His patient soul endures what Heav'n ordains, But neither feels nor fears ideal pains.