running with sharp knives
never got me so far
but running with you
seemed lovely

We weren’t running on fuel, we were running on fumes.

The problem was I always took the blame. But he was wrong. But I thought me taking the blame could fix it.

It’s hard to leave toxic relationships because you become dependent on the action of how they treat you. You depend on manipulation because the emotionally abused no longer comprehend self worth. You understand it, but your mind tells you otherwise and become afraid to leave the situation. You don’t think you’re worthy which makes you question leaving it.

I didn’t fear you. I feared us. I feared what could have been. I feared what could be. I feared the connection we had between each other. The toxicity because I could grasp the danger.

It wasn’t good. It was good in the beginning and I held on to that.