So look," he began, leaning over the desk, "I was—" "Excuse me?" Bethany said. Her voice was loud, even. Wes turned and looked at her. As he did so, I watched his profile, his arm, that little bit of the heart in hand peeking out from his sleeve. "We can help you over here," Bethany said to him. "Did you have a question?" "Um, sort of," Wes said, glancing at me, a mild smile on his face. "But—" "I can answer it," Bethany said solidly, so confidently. Amanda, beside her, nodded, seconding this. "Really, it's fine," he said, then looked at me again. He raised his eyebrows, and I just shrugged. "Okay, so—" "She's only a trainee, she won't know the answer," Bethany told him, pushing her chair over closer to where he was, her voice too loud, bossy even. "It's better if you ask me. Or ask us." Then, and only then, did I see the tiniest flicker of annoyance on Wes's face. "You know," Wes said, "I think she'll know it." "She won't. Ask me." Now it wasn't just a flicker. Wes looked at me, narrowing his eyes, and for a second I just stared back. Whatever happens, I thought, happens. For the first time, time at the info desk was flying. "Okay," he said slowly, moving down the counter. He leaned on his elbows, closer to Bethany, and she sat up even straighter, readying herself, like someone onJeopardy awaiting the Daily Double. "So here's my question." Amanda picked up a pen, as if there might be a written portion. "Last night," Wes said, his voice serious, "when the supplies were being packed up, what happened to the big tongs?" The sick part was that Bethany, for a second, looked as if she was actually flipping through her mental Rolodex for the answer. I watched her swallow, then purse her lips. "Well," she said. But that was all. I could feel myself smiling. A real smile. Wes looked at Amanda. "Do you know?" Amanda shook her head slowly. "All right," he said, turning back to look at me. "Better ask the trainee, then. Macy?" I could feel Amanda and Bethany looking at me. "They're in the bottom of that cart with the broken back wheel, under the aprons," I said. "There wasn't room for them with the other serving stuff.
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Related What do you want to show me?" "Nothing, really. I just want to be alone with you for a mi... RAINBOW ROWELL I love you," he said. She looked up at him, her eyes shiny and black, then looked away. "... RAINBOW ROWELL Right," Chaol said. "So you're just...memorizing that information now?" "If you're sugges... SARAH J. MAAS You were dancing with Yuki and I looked at you. And you turned away and held her closer. Why did you... APRILYNNE PIKE He then kissed her. It was a very long time before he let her go. When he did, she looked... EVA IBBOTSON Tamani checkled. ‘If it makes you feel any better, it scares the daylights our of me on a regular ... APRILYNNE PIKE Plastic ware," he said slowly, "like knives and forks and spoons?" I brushed a bit of dirt off ... SARAH DESSEN I saw a picture of you and Vincent in a 1968 newspaper that said you died in a fire," I said, turnin... AMY PLUM And then that voice from behind her said her name again. "Celaena." They had d... SARAH J. MAAS Abby,” he signed. “Hmm?” “I have a confession to make.” “Okay,” she ... SAMANTHA CHASE You be as angry as you need to be," she said. "Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Not your grandma... PATRICK NESS I looked at him and the other two people whose names I’d just learned. “So . . . so this is home... KIERA CASS Lea stood upon a fallen log ahead of us, staring ahead. Mouse walked up to her. Gggrrrr r... JIM BUTCHER How did you meet him?" I asked her. She smiled. "Here, actually. During a dinner rush. He was s... SARAH DESSEN Inej turned to go. Kaz seized her hand, keeping it on the railing. He didn't look at her. "Stay", he... LEIGH BARDUGO You cold or something?' he said. She strained against him; she wanted to pass clear through him: 'It... TRUMAN CAPOTE Leslie-Ann set down her own bucket and watched, marveling, as a quarter of an inch of water covered ... MICHAEL GRANT For Lucie," Peter said quietly, the flame of a gilded saint's candle fluttering in his hand." "... SARAH BLAKLEY-CARTWRIGHT He stared at me. "She liked you, boy." The intensity of his voice and eyes made me blink. "Yes,... JERRY SPINELLI What were you thinking about just now while you were looking out the window?" To his surprise, ... JUDITH MCNAUGHT Peter," she began. He looked up at her, and she could see the pain in his eyes. "I love you," she sa... SARAH BLAKLEY-CARTWRIGHT Do you want to marry him?" Peter stopped in front of her, pressing close. "You know I don't." SARAH BLAKLEY-CARTWRIGHT I… What are you saying, Zsadist?" she stammered, even though she'd heard every word. He... J.R. WARD He pointed the gun at me. Then he looked up at my hand & tilted his head slightly. - Journe... STEVE TOLTZ He grasped her by the wrist , running a thumb along the sensitive skin underneath. "Then let me call... SARAH J. MAAS Okay," I said, "what's your biggest fear?" As always, he took a second to think about the answe... SARAH DESSEN There was a few seconds' pause. Then Amit said: I meant, what were you thinking just now. VIKRAM SETH How can I judge?" she said at last. "To me, he is a hero. To the world a monster." She let her head ... ROBERT FANNEY I said, somewhat confused, “What’s the problem?” [Kristy] rolled her eyes. Beside her, Mo... SARAH DESSEN After a while Mary said, “Zsadist?” “Yeah?” “What are those markings... J.R. WARD Then come here," he said, a bit redundantly, as he had already pulled her with him into an armchair ... KRISTIN CASHORE I took in a breath. "What's the one thing you'd do," I asked. "if you could do anything?" Pass,... SARAH DESSEN You adopted him," I said when Romeo sat on the coffee table in front of me. "You love him," he ... CAMBRIA HEBERT you can do all sorts of stuff that full-grown wizards can't, Viktor always said --" Ron looked ... J.K. ROWLING No, I know,” Levi said. “But it’s not you. You don’t push through every moment. You pay atte... RAINBOW ROWELL I just can't believe that life would give us to each other," he said, "and then take it back." ... RAINBOW ROWELL How would you like it if I said to you, 'It kills me to say this, but you're actually a tiny bit bea... MELINA MARCHETTA Ara?" She jerked her face up. "Huh? Where were we?" But his expression had grown serious, ... KRESLEY COLE You are real," she said to herself. "Aye." His voice was deep and resonant, a caress in h... J.R. WARD Portia followed after, a smirk on her face, and Syc hissed as he passed. Donegan waited till th... DEREK LANDY A smile spread over Dr. Blockhead's face. 'But where are my manners?' he said. 'What a bad host I am... LES MARTIN Valentine whirled. Clary, lying half-conscious in the sand, her wrists and arms a screaming agony, s... CASSANDRA CLARE Sounds like that happens to you a lot. Bet your girlfriend wasn't thrilled, though." She wasn't sure... MELISSA DE LA CRUZ Might I,” quavered Mary, “might I have a bit of earth?” In her eagerness she did no... FRANCES HODGSON BURNETT What are you doing?" she asked. Grimacing, he considered returning his mouth to hers and ... LORRAINE HEATH Say something in Mandarin,” said Tessa, with a smile. Jem said something that sounded like a ... CASSANDRA CLARE The girl in the tight black dress was passing by us now, eyeing Wes and walking entirely too slowly.... SARAH DESSEN What did she say to you?" "Nothing." "Oh, great. I have to try to get you out of this mess... MELINA MARCHETTA The little group before her finally moved on and Sarah took its place, standing before Tom like he w... BONNIE DEE Astrid found the hem of his T-shirt and pulled it up over his head. She unbuckled his belt and shove... MICHAEL GRANT She came towards me with a juicy gash between her legs that smelled like my best friend's sister" DAVE MATTHES In Truth,” I said, “there are no rules other than you have to tell the truth.” “How do ... SARAH DESSEN Her hands brushed Shane's, and he let go of the cards and took hold. And then somehow she... RACHEL CAINE I just want to know—are you rooting for me? Are you hoping I pull this off?" Cath's eye... RAINBOW ROWELL My name...my name is Mary. I'm here with a friend.' Rhage stopped breathing. His heart skipped ... J.R. WARD ... As Lorcan stared down at Lysandra, his blood-splattered face impassive. "Out of the way, shifter... SARAH J. MAAS When we get out of this, let’s go somewhere again. Me and you.” The tension in her c... VERONICA ROSSI Stop! Stop!” Sophie shrieked with laughter as she ran down the stone steps that led to the g... JULIA QUINN I am so lonely without you, Aedan," Jane said simply. "You truly want me?" "Mo... KAREN MARIE MONING Hi,Bas." "You want to hold him?" Tory asked. Terrified at the mere thought, Styxx shook hi... SHERRILYN KENYON Do you love him?” I jumped out of my skin. She was standing right beside me. “Who?” JULIE ANNE PETERS How old are you, anyway?' she asked, squinting at him. There was a pause. At last he said, 'Why... NATALIE BABBITT I don’t know. D’you think? He’s pretty wide in the chest.” The girl looked at me... M.T. ANDERSON My little man,” she said. “No.” She stretched out her hand to him. “Come.” ... MICHAEL GRANT So, what did you think of the Unseelie Court?" A slow, wicked smile spread on his face. "... HOLLY BLACK Is it true that you shouted at Professor Umbridge?' 'Yes,' said Harry. 'You ca... J.K. ROWLING When Kai fell silent, she risked a glance at him. He was staring at her hands [which she always hold... MARISSA MEYER So what's your doll's name?" Boo asked me. "Barbie," I said. "All their names are Barbie." SARAH DESSEN I am Detective Inspector Me. This is my partner, Detective Her." The traffic warden frowned. "H... DEREK LANDY I've missed you, Sebastian." "Have you, love?" He unfastened the buttons of her robe, the... LISA KLEYPAS Before she realized he was next to her, he had placed his hands over hers on the countertop, then ho... ALICE HOFFMAN She looked at him and smiled. “Hey, you took my advice about the skinnier tie.” She reached up a... JULIE JAMES She raised an eyebrow. "You got something to say to me, Seaweed Brain?" You'd probably ki... RICK RIORDAN After a steadying breath, Aislinn turned to Keenan. "I'm sure you can figure out lunch without help.... MELISSA MARR It was not the thought that I was so unloved that froze me. I had taught myself to do without love.<... KURT VONNEGUT JR. In that case" Tessa said, feeling hot blood rise to her face,"I think I would prefer it if you calle... CASSANDRA CLARE He looked down at himself and laughed softly. ‘‘My dark side dresses better than I do.’’ He ... RACHEL CAINE You guessed? You must have been pretty sure, considering you could have killed me." "I was nine... CASSANDRA CLARE You just looked..." she said, searching for the word, "taken, you know? Plus you hardly reacted to W... SARAH DESSEN And I'm not sensitive at all, Philip. Just mean." He smiled down at her. "Have you ever co... NORA ROBERTS I love you, Eve.” She looked away from the sun, the ocean, and into his eyes. And it was wonderful... J.D. ROBB Damn, damn, damn," she said. "I never said why I like you, and now I have to go." "That's okay,... RAINBOW ROWELL The Janus Guard will also be out that night,” he said, one hand reaching out to squeeze her should... LESLEY LIVINGSTON This is what it's all been about with you," he said in an even tone. "All the fear, all the run... KRESLEY COLE The multicolored kitten snuggled between her breasts. Lucky cat. "I thought ma... CANDIS TERRY Mom." I couldn't believe she was doing this again. She was taking this moment, this time when I was ... SARAH DESSEN When, some months later, Zoltan emailed me about his decision to run for president, I immediately ca... MARK O'CONNELL Percy, let me go" she croaked. "You can't pull me up." His face was white with effort. She coul... RICK RIORDAN The car came opposite her, and she curtsied so low that recovery was impossible, and she sat down in... E.F. BENSON He sipped again, more deeply. “Is this an interrogation, Lieutenant?” It was the smile in his vo... J.D. ROBB Now he felt temper snapping at the nerves. “If you can’t be comfortable in the house while I’m... J.D. ROBB Peter?” He couldn’t look at her. Instead, he stared down at his poisoned arm. “... SARAH BLAKLEY-CARTWRIGHT I want you,” she said. “Naked.” His nostrils flared as if he was soaking in the sc... NALINI SINGH I sat in the passenger seat of the squad car, laughing at the look on Noah’s face. “She tr... C.A. HARMS There was something about my face,she said, that she couldn't stand. Something about my eyes, the wa... TAHEREH MAFI I dialed the number slowly, wanting to get it right. Two rings, and he picked up. "Yes," I sai... SARAH DESSEN I told you everything I know", said the messenger. Arin had gone to his childhood suite, feeling anx... MARIE RUTKOSKI What did he do to you?” “This,” I said, holding up my hand. There was a shattering... CHELSEA M. CAMERON Look. I don’t want to push you into anything, but do you maybe want to —” “Call Magnus? Look... CASSANDRA CLARE You let her get away?” Caine demanded, forgetting Sam for the moment. “I didn’t let her g... MICHAEL GRANT
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It's okay to accept things from people. It doesn't make you weak or helpless. SARAH DESSEN When I pictured myself, it was always like just an outline in a colouring book, with the inside not ... SARAH DESSEN But you don’t have to give everyone the benefit of the doubt.” “You don’t have to assum... SARAH DESSEN The best gifts come from the heart, not the store. SARAH DESSEN He wasn't the type for displays of affection, either verbal or not. He was disgusted by couples that... SARAH DESSEN Life is an awful, ugly place to not have a best friend. SARAH DESSEN So you're always honest," I said. "Aren't you?" "No," I told him. "I'm not." "Well, t... SARAH DESSEN There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single f... SARAH DESSEN And that was it. All this buildup to a great leap, and I didn't fall or fly. Instead I found myself ... SARAH DESSEN You, have this whole tall, dark stranger thing going on. Not to mention the tortured artist bit. 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I'm in the grocery store, at the park with my kids, ... SARAH DESSEN I'm always hopeful. I feel like I'm at the prom sitting against the wall waiting for someone... SARAH DESSEN When I was a teen, I was never really into the captain of the football team or the student body pres... SARAH DESSEN It's not always easy being her daughter.' I think,' she said, 'sometimes it's hard no ma... SARAH DESSEN I thought this was a cookout. You know, dogs and burgers, Tater Tots, ambrosia salad" Dexter picked ... SARAH DESSEN Oh, God," I said. "No, it's Dexter," he replied, offering me his hand, which I ignored. He... SARAH DESSEN What the hell," I said, pushing off the wall, ready to take off the head of whatever stupid salesper... SARAH DESSEN But you, fine sir." John Miller clapped Dexter on the shoulder, a bit unsteadily. "You have problems... SARAH DESSEN Plastic ware," he said slowly, "like knives and forks and spoons?" I brushed a bit of dirt off ... SARAH DESSEN Are those the only options? Nothing or forever? SARAH DESSEN I just thought to my self, all of a sudden, that we had something in common. A natural chemistry, if... SARAH DESSEN I was born in 1970 in Illinois, but all the life I remember I've spent in Chapel Hill, N.C. SARAH DESSEN Outside, the ocean was crashing, waves hitting sand, then pulling back to sea. I thought of everythi... SARAH DESSEN Maybe if I'd agreed to do the debutante thing like she wanted. Or taken up pageants instead of ridin... SARAH DESSEN Relationships dont always make sense. Especially from the outside SARAH DESSEN Maybe the truth was, it shouldn't be so easy to be amazing. Then everything would be. It's the thing... SARAH DESSEN Accepting all the good and bad about someone. It's a great thing to aspire to. The hard part is actu... SARAH DESSEN Stuff that would be weird in the bright light of day just wasn't so much once you passed a certain h... SARAH DESSEN Really, it had been stupid to expect anything anyway. A few late nights does not a habit, or a relat... SARAH DESSEN I sat up, sliding them off, and the quiet around me did not, for once, seem empty and vast. Instead,... SARAH DESSEN Look, everyone mourns at their own pace. Maybe you're just a little bit ahead of her, but she'll get... SARAH DESSEN She bought seeds and raided nurseries and mulched and composted and spent full days with her hands f... SARAH DESSEN But anyone can begin. It was the part with all the promise, the potential, the things I loved. More ... SARAH DESSEN There's just something obvious about emptiness, even when you try to convince yourself otherwise. SARAH DESSEN Macy: “In Truth,” I said, “there are no rules other than you have to tell the truth.” W... SARAH DESSEN funny how a beautiful song could tell such a sad story SARAH DESSEN Life shouldn't be about the either/or. We're capable of more than that, you know? SARAH DESSEN Not everything's perfect, especially in the beginning. And its all right to have a little bit of reg... SARAH DESSEN Well, it's true that I have been hurt in my life. Quite a bit. But it's also true that I have loved,... SARAH DESSEN She knew I could tell with one glance, one look, one simple instant. It was her eyes. Despite the th... SARAH DESSEN I didnt pay atteniton to times or distance, instead focusing on how it felt just to be in motion, kn... SARAH DESSEN Wherever you will go, I will let you down, But this lullaby goes on. SARAH DESSEN I am still the center sister. But I see it differently now. There has to be a middle. Without it, no... SARAH DESSEN Maybe not," she said as we came to the car. "But maybe that isn't so bad. You can't love anyone that... SARAH DESSEN Remy: Did you really believe, that first day, that we were meant to be together? Dexter: ... SARAH DESSEN Love is so unpredictable. That's what makes it so great. SARAH DESSEN Silence is so freaking loud SARAH DESSEN Maybe other writers have perfect first drafts, but I am not one of them. I always try to get the boo... SARAH DESSEN You're not supposed to have it all figured out in high school. If you knew it all, and it was th... SARAH DESSEN I'd still thought that everything I thought about that night-the shame, the fear-would fade in time.... SARAH DESSEN Despite my dad's assurances I was strangely nervous my stomach tight ever since we'd hung up. Maybe ... SARAH DESSEN That was the hard thing about grief, and the grieving. They spoke another language, and the words we... SARAH DESSEN because a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. no matter what... SARAH DESSEN I've never envied the person who had to put my books together in one script. SARAH DESSEN Sometimes, you get things right the first time. Others, the second. But the third time, they say, is... SARAH DESSEN He glanced over at me. 'Scared? Of Reggie? What, she thinks he might force her to give up caffeine f... SARAH DESSEN In midair, dangling lost above the world. SARAH DESSEN And so we stood there in the kitchen, my mother and I, facing off over everything that had built up ... SARAH DESSEN And to know me, as you have discovered, is to love me. SARAH DESSEN Sometimes you dont even want to think aout what people are doing with their groceries. SARAH DESSEN Best Friends. And I thought of what she had done all the millions of times I cried to he... SARAH DESSEN Why don't you ever wait a second and see what I'm planning, or thinking, before you burst in with yo... SARAH DESSEN I didn't want to leave things the way we had, unresolved, ... and tried to tell myself he cared abou... SARAH DESSEN It was something I couldn't put my finger on or define clearly, but a whole mishmash of words and in... SARAH DESSEN As far as I was concerned, we'd come to a draw: I hadn't wanted to come, and she didn't want me to l... SARAH DESSEN The language of solace, and comets, and the girls we all become, in the end. SARAH DESSEN This world is an awful/ugly place not to have a best friend. SARAH DESSEN its reall bad SARAH DESSEN Just like that, with one phone call, she was a daughter again. SARAH DESSEN I hoped that Grace would be a little bit of the best of all of us: Scarlett's spirit, and my mother'... SARAH DESSEN If you have just one person believe in you, you'll always find your way SARAH DESSEN You can't just plan a moment when things get back on track, just as you can't plan the moment you lo... SARAH DESSEN And that was it; it was so easy for her. My own memories did not even belong to me. But I knew she w... SARAH DESSEN I knew I had to keep him to myself, as I'd slowly begun to keep everything. We had secrets now, trut... SARAH DESSEN He wasn't what I'd thought he was; maybe he never had been. I wasn't what I'd thought I was, either. SARAH DESSEN When I pictured myself, it was always like just an outline in a coloring book, with the inside not y... SARAH DESSEN Mom." I couldn't believe she was doing this again. She was taking this moment, this time when I was ... SARAH DESSEN I wondered again why the right thing always seemed to be met with so much resistance, when you'd thi... SARAH DESSEN Macon: “It’s true. And if that doesn’t work, use the Jedi Mind Trick. But only if you really h... SARAH DESSEN Don't be a fool. Don't give up something important to hold onto someone who can't even say they love... SARAH DESSEN I've given lots of people chances," she said suddenly, as if Marion was still in the room to hear us... SARAH DESSEN I watched my mother do what she did best, and realized there would never be a way to cut myself from... SARAH DESSEN You can't just turn your heart off like a faucet; you have to go to the source and dry it out, drop ... SARAH DESSEN You can't just plan a moment when things get back on track, just as you can't plan the moment you lo... SARAH DESSEN What is family? They were the people who claimed you. In good, in bad, in parts or in whole, they we... SARAH DESSEN Because this is what happens when you try to run from the past. It just doesn’t catch up, it overt... SARAH DESSEN Sometimes it seems safer to hold it all in, where the only person who can judge is yourself. SARAH DESSEN The bottom line is, what defines you isn't how many times you crash, but the number of times you get... SARAH DESSEN An ending was an ending. No matter how many pages of sentences and paragraphs of great stories led u... SARAH DESSEN So many times it seemed like there were chances to stop things before they started. Or even stop the... SARAH DESSEN Friends are honest with each other. Even if the truth hurts. -Maggie SARAH DESSEN Two a.m.' He swallowed, then said, "You know. The person you can call at two a.m. and, no matter wha... SARAH DESSEN So much had happened that morning. Yet it was this image, this moment, that i kept going back to hou... SARAH DESSEN [Adam picks up the camera] "I have to get a shot of this." The reaction in the room was swift, ... SARAH DESSEN You get what you give, but also what you're willing to take. SARAH DESSEN It didn't make you noble to step away from something that wasn't working, even if you thought you we... SARAH DESSEN There's a kind of radar that you get, after years of being talked about and made fun of by other peo... SARAH DESSEN You can't make any one person your world. The trick is to take what each can give you and build a wo... SARAH DESSEN Hate Spinnerbait! SARAH DESSEN It's a lot easier to be lost than found. It's the reason we're always searching and rarely discovere... SARAH DESSEN It doesn't matter, anyway, why you like me. Just that you do. SARAH DESSEN Suddenly, I was just sure he was going to kiss me. He was there, I could feel his breath, the ground... SARAH DESSEN There was something so heavy about the burden of history, of the past. I wasn't sure I had it in me ... SARAH DESSEN Oh for God's sake,' Heather said, 'I wish you two would just go out, fail miserably as a couple, and... SARAH DESSEN It's a great compliment that people think they're fast reads. It's always funny to me because it tak... SARAH DESSEN Wherever you will go, I will let you down, But this lullaby goes on. SARAH DESSEN I think my mother characters have changed a lot since Sasha was born, just because I understand what... SARAH DESSEN With love like that, you can't get pick about how it finds you or the details. All that matters is t... SARAH DESSEN You want me to give her a key?" the guy asked. "I want you to give her a possibility," she told... SARAH DESSEN What was it like to be so confident even in your failings that you weren't the least bit bothered wh... SARAH DESSEN Look,” he said, “the point is there’s no way to be a hundred percent sure about anyone or anyt... SARAH DESSEN Your mother won a special reward," she told me, "because everyone had a head in her pictures. We all... SARAH DESSEN Rogerson," I asked him sweetly as we sat watching a video in the pool house, "where would I find the... SARAH DESSEN I'd heard of Evergreen Care Center before. Cass and I had always made fun of the stupid ads they ran... SARAH DESSEN Nothing like being scolded by a hippie. SARAH DESSEN After all, it's all kinds of things that make up a life, right? The big, like falling in love and sp... SARAH DESSEN I knew this feeling, the 2 a.m. loneliness that I'd practically invented. SARAH DESSEN Maybe we were all destined to just keep doing the same stupid things, over and over again, never rea... SARAH DESSEN After the group vet appointment--during which Lyle scratched the vet, the vet tech, and some poor wo... SARAH DESSEN It [I'm leaving] wasn't really necessary to say, especially if you were already walking away. Almost... SARAH DESSEN It was so risky and so scary, and yet at the same time, so beautiful. Maybe the truth was, it should... SARAH DESSEN When you don't know where you're going, maybe it wasn't such a bad thing to have more than you need. SARAH DESSEN That's not a real answer.' Says who?' Says me. I mean real fear, like of failure, of death... SARAH DESSEN It's hard to be nice when the rest of the world is so mean. SARAH DESSEN I want the white one SARAH DESSEN As Isabel acted out her date, both of them laughing, I stayed in the kitchen, out of sight, and pret... SARAH DESSEN Isn't it weird," I said, "the way you remember things, when someone's gone?" What do you mean?"... SARAH DESSEN I can still see Boo sitting there on the floor, cross-legged, holding my Ken and watching my face as... SARAH DESSEN So what's your doll's name?" Boo asked me. "Barbie," I said. "All their names are Barbie." SARAH DESSEN Why should I even bother? What's the point, really?" He thought for a moment. "Who says there h... SARAH DESSEN I couldn't imagine what it would be like to be one of so many, to have not just parents and siblings... SARAH DESSEN If someone is really close with you, your getting upset or them getting upset is okay, and they don�... SARAH DESSEN Restoring order of my personal universe suddenly seemed imperative, as I refolded my T-shirts, stuff... SARAH DESSEN There were so many places in my time with Rogerson that I wished I could go back to, hitting the sto... SARAH DESSEN That's what this has been all about for you, correct? Make it clear. That you and me--it was nothing... SARAH DESSEN And for one second, it was like I could feel the timing clicking together, finally pieces falling in... SARAH DESSEN Sometimes, you have to manufacture your own history. Give fate a push, so to speak. SARAH DESSEN It was amazing how you could get so far from where you'd planned, and yet find it was exactly were y... SARAH DESSEN These were always the weirdest trips for me, when it was midnight or even later, and we pulled up to... SARAH DESSEN You couldn't just pick and choose at will when someone depended on you, or loved you. It wasn't like... SARAH DESSEN Story of my life. SARAH DESSEN instead, we just sat there, together but really apart, watching a show about a stranger and all her ... SARAH DESSEN I understood now. This voice, the one that had been trying to get my attention all this time, callin... SARAH DESSEN I am the middle sister. The one in between. Not oldest, not youngest, not boldest, not nicest. I am ... SARAH DESSEN I'd been convinced I was on the outside, but really, I'd always been within arm's reach. All I had t... SARAH DESSEN Because this is what happens when you try to run from the past. it doesn't just catch up: it overtak... SARAH DESSEN Because the truth sometimes hurts," I said. Yeah," he said. "So do lies, though. SARAH DESSEN