The past three weeks have been a living hell for us. I just wish my brother was back with me.

They used us as an excuse to go mad and then blamed it on us. Gandhi says create and preserve the image of your choice. The image of my choice is not Beatle George - those who want that can go and see Wings. Why live in the past? Be here now.

Nothing less than qualifying for the postseason will satisfy us. We have had disappointing endings the past two years when we just missed moving on.

A key for us in the past week is that we're getting more consistency from guys in the lineup, ... Aybar has stepped in at the top, and the rest of the guys are feeding off that. He's set the tone and everybody's followed. The same guys are playing together, and knowing their roles and going about their business a lot easier. When guys move in and out, it's hard to get comfortable. That's part of the reason we're playing good ball now.

He may have bumped his head on the way out. It's tough to say. I wish I knew.

This is not how I wanted to start the New Year.