The worst feeling was helplessness. I'm done being helpless. I need to be on the front line. Few other things can occupy my mind. I can't read books. I can't watch movies. They can't distract me from the hurt.

I have died every day in my mind with disgust for not being able to protect my own children.

In terms of front-line players, it's the worst since I've been here. Last year, we probably had 10 more guys injured at this stage of practice.

Helplessness is such a rotten feeling. There's nothing you can do about it. Being helpless is like being paralyzed. It's sickness. The cure calls for a monumental effort to stand up and start walking somewhere, anywhere. But that takes some doing.

It was just - utter feeling of helplessness is the only way I can describe it.

What a terrible feeling to love soemone and not be able to help them.