This isn't about going back, it's about life being ahead of you and you run at it! Because you never know how far you can go unless you run.

Myrna could spend happy hours browsing bookcases. She felt if she could just get a good look at a person’s bookcase and their grocery cart, she’d pretty much know who they were.

Do you give the horse his strength or clothe his neck with a flowing mane? Do you make him leap like a locust, striking terror with his proud snorting? He paws fiercely, rejoicing in his strength, and charges into the fray. He laughs at fear, afraid of nothing; he does not shy away from the sword. The quiver rattles against his side, along with the flashing spear and lance. In frenzied excitement he eats up the ground; he cannot stand still when the trumpet sounds."
Job 39:19-25

A bad penny always comes back

I can tell you to the penny where everything is.

Cause and effect is the basis of my education, leading me to an essence far more profound than any rule of societal conditioning.