To have my hopes raised and dashed again, it's like cold steel twisting in my gut.

Hollowness: that I understand. I'm starting to believe that there isn't anything you can do to fix it. That's what I've taken from the therapy sessions: the holes in your life are permanent. You have to grow around them, like tree roots around concrete; you mold yourself through the gaps

How disappointment tracks the steps of hope

There is a little disappointment but we have lots of hope and intensity for Wednesday,

I hope I've overcome this disappointment. I was in a really bad mood.

The drop in industrial capital goods is a disappointment - I hope it's just an accident.