To strive to better oneself is natural and expected.
To abandon oneself in an effort to attain a new self is foolish and unhealthy.

You want my advice? Well, here it is. Don't take no advice and don't give none neither.

Invite someone to do something fun.

If it's the other guy's fault, you can't fix it. Don't blame other people for your problems. That gives them all the power. Own up to your mistakes.

I'd suggest you find something better to do with your time...

Preserve history. Don't delete it.