What difference does it make?" he says. "People can think whatever they like. I don't desire their validation." "So you don't mind," I ask him, "that people judge you so harshly?" "I have no one to impress," he says. "No one who cares about what happens to me. I'm not in the business of making friends, love. My job is to lead an army, and it's the only thing I'm good at. No one," he says, "would be proud of the things I've accomplished. My mother doesn't even know me anymore. My father thinks I'm weak and pathetic. My soldiers want me dead. The world is going to hell. And the conversations I have with you are the longest I've ever had.
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But this time, a voice I don't detest. "Sire, please, can y... TAHEREH MAFI There’s something simmering inside of me. Something I’ve never dared to tap into, something I’... TAHEREH MAFI I want to be someone else somewhere else with something else to fill my mind. TAHEREH MAFI Sometimes I close my eyes and paint these walls a different color. I imagine I’m wearing warm sock... TAHEREH MAFI This girl is destroying me. A girl who has spent the last year in an insane asylum. A girl who would... TAHEREH MAFI She searches me with those odd, blue-green eyes and I feel guilty so suddenly, without understanding... TAHEREH MAFI Sometimes I wish I could step outside of myself for a while. I want to leave this worn body behind, ... TAHEREH MAFI Torture is not torture when there’s any hope of relief. TAHEREH MAFI These letters are all I have left. 26 friends to tell my stories to. 26 letters are all I ... TAHEREH MAFI Dude, you ran off with the crazy chick! You ran off with the psycho girl!" he's calling after Adam. ... TAHEREH MAFI Hope in this world bleeds out of the barrel of a gun. TAHEREH MAFI He whispers, "You have no idea how much I've thought about you. How many times I've dreamt"-he takes... TAHEREH MAFI I am a being comprised of letters, a character created by sentences, a figment of imagination formed... TAHEREH MAFI Adam stares at me so long I begin to blush. He tips my chin up so I meet his eyes. Blue blue blue bo... TAHEREH MAFI Girls are always talking about electricity in their romance, but none are too happy to actually be e... TAHEREH MAFI Killing time isn't as difficult as it sounds. I can shoot a hundred numbers through the c... TAHEREH MAFI You can't touch me," I whisper. I'm lying, is what I don't tell him. He can touch me, is what I'll n... TAHEREH MAFI Someone picked up the sun and pinned it to the sky again, but every day it hangs a little lower than... TAHEREH MAFI I am nothing but novocaine. I am numb, a world of nothing, all feeling and emotion gone forever. TAHEREH MAFI My voice softens. 'How old are you ?' 'I'll be eleven next year.' I grin. 'So you're... TAHEREH MAFI Hope is hugging me, holding me in its arms, wiping away my tears and telling me that today and tomor... TAHEREH MAFI The man is moody as hell.” “I am not moody —” “Yeah, bro.” K... TAHEREH MAFI Time goes on even when we do not. TAHEREH MAFI I am suspended in the moment. Flickering images faded with age, frozen thoughts hovering precariousl... TAHEREH MAFI You can go to hell!" "Just because I'm going to hell doesn't mean you'll ever deserve her. TAHEREH MAFI Please—please get up—and lower your voice —” “Hell no.” “Why no... TAHEREH MAFI Have you ever had a girlfriend, Kenji?" "What?" He looks mortally offended. "Do I look l... TAHEREH MAFI Sticks and stones keep breaking my bones but these words, these words will kill me. TAHEREH MAFI Because something inside of my heart is ripping apart and it feels like fear, it tastes like panic a... TAHEREH MAFI Tell me what you want" he [Warner] says desperately. "Tell me what to do," he says, "and I'll do it. TAHEREH MAFI .. but you-with you-" Hefalters. Looks down. "How am I supposed to go back?" he asks, so quietly. "H... TAHEREH MAFI The truth," he says, "is a painful reminder of why I prefer to live among the lies. TAHEREH MAFI Twice. Once for Adam. Once for Warner. TAHEREH MAFI People can think whatever they like....I don't desire their validation. TAHEREH MAFI Hang tight Hold on Look up Stay strong Hang on Hold tight Look strong<... TAHEREH MAFI I would rather be dead, than go back to being silent and suffocated. TAHEREH MAFI All I know next are his arms, the desperate edge to his voice when he says my name, and I'm unraveli... TAHEREH MAFI You know, I can sort of control it now," I tell him, beaming. "I can moderate my strength levels." TAHEREH MAFI I'm not falling for Warner," I say quietly. "Sure you aren't." "I'm not," I insist. "I'm j... TAHEREH MAFI Because I was dying. And Warner could’ve let me die. He was angry and hurt and had ever... TAHEREH MAFI He and I would end up like water going nowhere. Water that never moves-- It's fine for a little whil... TAHEREH MAFI Back to work. And this time, focus. You’re not an ape. Don’t just throw your shit everywhere. TAHEREH MAFI It's incredible how someone can look so right and feel so wrong. Kent is a lucky bastard. TAHEREH MAFI So I take a deep breath. Step forward. Let go. 10 seconds and I'm trying to bre... TAHEREH MAFI At least I'm honest about being a liar TAHEREH MAFI I want to trust but it scares the skin off my bones. TAHEREH MAFI A handful of letters doesn't always make a word, love. TAHEREH MAFI You're naked?" Kenji is suddenly studying my sheet and not bothering to be subtle about it. I flush ... TAHEREH MAFI Juliette,” he says. “Yes?” I can hear him breathing. “Thank... TAHEREH MAFI