You might be looking for reasons but there are no reasons.

How it's so easy for her to not feel anything at all, to be just completely gone, to not be around to see how fucked up she's made me. She got to disappear completely and I feel like I'm about to combust.

This is what I want so don't be sad.

There are so many things that I want so badly to tell you but I just can't.

I don't want to hurt you or anybody so please forget about me. Just try. Find yourself a better friend.

And I want to tell you about everything but I can't because I couldn't stand for you to have that look on your face all the time. I just need you to look at me and think that I'm normal. I just really need that from you.