There's childhood and early onset bipolar, but it transitions in your early adulthood into something a little bit different, and extremely severe. It was at that time that my impulse control just went out the window. Impulse control when you're manic just disappears.
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Related It's interesting because the first batch of really struggling with control and escape and all th... MARTI NOXON When you're a self-made man, you start very early in life. In my case it was at 9 years old when... KIRK KERKORIAN I've heard this before from people: early 20s kind of screws with your head a little bit because... DAN BYRD At first I was a bit indignant about it, and then I realised, 'No, that's what people want, ... JULIA ORMOND I guess the thing I would say most fervently is that your original impulse to write something is an ... ANTONYA NELSON It definitely is an ice breaker going into the awards already having one, and it was just so crazy w... MAREN MORRIS There's only one thing harder than living in a home with an adolescent - and that's being an... JEFFREY KLUGER Impulse control means learning to think it through before you act it out. TERENCE T. GORSKI My early life was a bit of a mess but it was no one's fault. It was just how it was. 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I mean, experimental science, yo... BARBARA EHRENREICH If you really want something, it's nerve-racking, but at the same time, I try not to stress myse... LAURA HARRIER The best thing is to go public only when you're absolutely sure that's the right move for th... JON ORINGER With 'Rage,' it was a little bit different because this was going to be the public's fir... JOHN CARMACK When you're interviewing someone, you're in control. When you're being interviewed, you ... BARBARA WALTERS You can never control who you fall in love with, even when you're in the most sad, confused time... KIRSTEN DUNST All through my life, I didn't really consider my eyes at all, and then I became an actress. It... ALICE EVE The point about manic depression or bipolar disorder, as it's now more commonly called, is that ... STEPHEN FRY When people call something a 'fail,' it's because you tried to accomplish something but ... BEN HUH I wrote stories from the time I was a little girl, but I didn't want to be a writer. I wanted to... JOAN DIDION Depression is something that doesn't just go away. It's just... there and you deal with it. ... ADAM ANT With anything in life, I think that's when you start stressing yourself out - when you start wor... SCOTT TOLZIEN When you're sitting ringside, there's a primal thing there that hooks into violence and exci... ANTOINE FUQUA I can put my legs behind my head, but that's pretty much it. An early agent said to me, 'If ... DOUG JONES It's something that is very comforting. Just the process of them moving throughout their stages ... JAKE ARRIETA When I'm doing just music all the time, it can get really overwhelming. It's always challeng... BAT FOR LASHES It was just this interesting, my first, the first time you hear your child in any way criticise you.... TEA LEONI I enjoy theater just for the sheer excitement of it and the immediate response that you get, and how... DORIAN MISSICK In my case, symptoms began to appear when I was only 57. In fact, the doctors believe early-onset Al... PAT SUMMITT I have a mess in my head sometimes, and there's something very satisfying about putting it into ... CARRIE FISHER We're here for a little, little bit of time, and I just wanna make the most out of it. ZARA LARSSON I tweet early in the morning when I wake up or late at night just to let you know that I have a show... TYLER, THE CREATOR There will never be a good time, financially, to get married, unless you're Shaq or Ray Romano. But ... GREG BEHRENDT When you're out dancing with your friends, you think you're cool. But then you get in the ba... JOANNA KRUPA It's disgusting, but my father taught me when your mouth gets dry, just suck the sweat out of yo... KOBE BRYANT I think that every young person is a little mentally ill, you know? If we're not totally shuttin... GABY HOFFMANN There's always times when, the organization, we're losing 90 games at a time, and it always ... BILLY BUTLER The essential truth is that sometimes you're worried that they'll find out it's a fluke,... ROBIN WILLIAMS Sometimes I go crazy - get into a mindspace where it doesn't matter what I spend. Like, on impul... TREY SONGZ There's a part of you - the born-again part, your spirit - that's dead to sin. That's wh... JOYCE MEYER When you're in a slump, you do something different, just to try it. I remember one time I was in... JOE TORRE That's called a microphone. It's a big sausage that picks up everything you say - and you... PRINCE CHARLES I'm really not good with impulse control. RICHELLE MEAD The most dangerous part of the race is early evening and especially early morning. It's the twil... ALLAN MCNISH As an actor, you have to give up all control to the director. He's the boss and has all the powe... EBON MOSS-BACHRACH Ray is very secretive about his ideas - why not, the times that the Kinks have been ripped off, espe... DAVE DAVIES When you're in your 20s, you're a little more carefree; you're single. You have a very d... MELISSA DE SOUSA It's different when you're an actor and playing a part, but when it's just you, you feel... HELENA BONHAM CARTER I don't carry any early childhood trauma around with me, if that's what you're hinting a... ANGELA MERKEL When you're seventeen to early twenties, that's the time you're trying to work out who y... DANIEL RADCLIFFE If you're different, or if you think something about you is just weird and out of the ordinary, ... KYLIE JENNER There's something about childhood friends that you just can't replace. LISA WHELCHEL There's something about strip malls that just reeks of my childhood. DAVE FOLEY One of the things about jail that's weird is that you're sent to a place where you're su... LANE GARRISON My first kiss was with a girlfriend. And it was at a party. I think I was hopeful that that would ha... TYLER BLACKBURN When you're writing for a sequel and there's a movie that's been deemed sacred ground by... TROY DUFFY I'm a control freak. If you're going to slap my name on something, I would like to control i... ANTHONY BOURDAIN I'm a little bit of a control freak when it comes to my music, unfortunately. NOEL GALLAGHER The person who swears in public has a loss of impulse control. JOSEPH TECCE I think in most cases, when you're writing a song, you're just making up a little story, and... ADAM SCHLESINGER A lot of my stories about the old days, they're delicious and funny. But every time I recall the... MARIO CUOMO I think it's so funny when people think they can't control a movie star. They can. We're... ESTHER WILLIAMS It's great when people appreciate your work, but I don't know how seriously to take it. The ... ADRIEN BRODY And I think over time [Summers will] learn that you just got to be able to control yourself a little... JOHN KASICH Change requires impulse control – learning to put a space between the urge and the action so we ca... TERENCE T. GORSKI I grew up in a family of Republicans. And when I was 18 and registering to vote, my mom's only i... TINA FEY
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