Grief doesn't have a plot. It isn't smooth. There is no beginning and middle and end.

... "you'd better go first or you'd better go last. No one will remember what come in the middle."
- "So what's the point of the middle than?" I asked. "If everyone only remembers the beginning and the end?"
-"Without the middle, being first or last means nothing."
The middle gave the rest its meaning.
Like life, maybe. People were born and then they died. Everyone remembers those events. But without the life in between...

I don't like plots. I don't know what a plot means. I can't stand the idea of anything that starts in the beginning - you know, 'beginning, middle and end.'

That's way normal. That's the whole beginning of the grief.

Composing means you have a beginning, middle and end and a fluidity to what you're doing.

A story should have a beginning, a middle and an end, but not necessarily in that order.