I feel I can't teach you anything, what I can do is organize some material that may seem wildly complex when you first take a look at it. I've been working at it for such a long time I can at least organize it. So you can go home and teach yourself how to get control of it... I could throw an act, I can tell jokes and try to be stimulating, I can organize the books. If you don't want to do it, I can't do anything about it.