I felt angry,
frustrated.
I felt I didn't belong, not in my,

church, not in my home, not


in my skin.

Hurt. Enough to want to make someone else hurt too.

You are a gift to all who know you, whether or not they realize it. If they don't, they are blind. You have a special place in this world. All you have to do is find it. Do not give up on yourself, or the truths you have realized. Do not give in to those who could crush your dreams like nutshells. And never turn away from forever love.

Some people
Are worthy of a bullet straight
to the heart because that is where
cruelty evolves into evil.
Some
humans aren't human at all,
despite how they appear.
Humanity is what lives inside
people,
harbored beneath skin, flesh,
and bone.

Honesty.
Sobriety.
My virginity.

No way to regain
the first two, I almost
gave away the last.

I'm afraid to hope but I can't help it, and the idea of hoping in this most hopeless of all places makes me want to cry.