It broke my heart. I live my life by the value system that you treat others the way you want to be treated. I let love be my guide. I absolutely hate no one.

Since the first audition in Chicago, I haven't gotten on the scale, but I do know that I've lost a considerable amount of weight since then -- about 30 pounds. I exercise, eat healthy and try not to let food dictate my life.

Looking back, I could see just my actions that day, I was being very encouraging to everybody and telling people I love them and I was just so glad that I met them. And I didn't realize I was saying goodbye. But looking back, I realize I was.

If you could see inside my head, then you'd start to understand the things I value in my heart.

Everyone was acting like it was a party, ... They were used to it, and here I was saying, 'What am I doing here?'

Life is simple and a matter of choice. We can be of value or of nuisance value.