You okay?"
Just waiting for the water to boil. Burning shower. One of the only things that helps when I'm totally freaking out."
I'm not sure how to respond. "So," I whisper, "you want anything?"
Yeah," She replies, sarcastic "I want to be bulimic, but the vomit grosses me out.

the truth will set u free but first it will piss u off

I can feel the hurt. There's something good about it. Mostly it makes me stop remembering.

Suddenly I grasped what was happening- they were all trying to save me.
I never thought I was worth saving.

When Sherri asks questions about who would find me if I killed myself and what their reaction would be, I think that whoever knew me would be sad. But then everybody would get over it. I would fade away. I don't think I'm that important to anyone. Nobody's opinion about me killing myself would stop me from doing it.

I've struggled with anorexia since I was 11. I've also taken on bulimic tendencies more recently over the last few months.